Written Words

So, I have discovered an artistic release while being here that I would like to share with you. I like to write poems or something along that line to express myself. I may just post these instead of long blog posts every couple of months because I am only in Namibia for 6 more months! Time has surely flown right on by. I hope you enjoy this peak into the deepness of my heart. Most are about inner struggles I have dealt with while being here. I will just post one every couple of days for you to absorb.

ONE SONG

A song of release, praise and cry for help

What happens when you are stripped of happiness

Stripped from your family

Stripped from your friends

Stripped of all that you claim as your identity

The good part anyway

The mirror reflects anger, pain, selfishness, apathy

The longer I look the darker I get

My skin melts, my face deforms

My eye sockets are dark holes

All I see is darkness 

A black mass

 Somehow I find my way 

I walk through the day

The day becomes night

The blind man sees better than me

The blind man is happier

How can I see like the blind man?

I close my eyes.

I open them.

The reflection is blurry. Hazy. 

I close my eyes. Clinch my eyes.

Tears. I feel tears roll down my face.

 I feel them.

 A warmth.

A wetness. 

A soft smile comes across my face

I am actually feeling tears

I open my eyes

I blink

I blink again and the flood clears from  my eyes

The image in the mirror is becoming clear

And it is not a deformed figure

It is a beautiful young lady

Is that truly me?

Or is that someone else?

Wow, I mean she is truly beautiful

She has a shine 

A sparkle like no other

The sparkle is still there, just dimmer

"Embrace the sparkle. Embrace the shine," I think.

I see the image brighten with clarity.

I am alive.

I am me. 

I need to hold onto this part of me. 

On another note, you should check out a new YouTube Channel my site mate and I are doing called The Damaricans. Check out our first video at https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YCjwbR7K4bw.